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Saturday, April 10, 2010

Garage Sale


Can there be anything more exposing than a garage sale? Shlepping out all of your used items. Parking them in your driveway for all of the neighborhood to pilfer through and name their price. I am so tired this morning as I sit in my lawn chair typing this post. It is 6:25 am and I am sitting braless with yesterdays makeup with all of my earthly treasure scattered around me. Yep. Exposed. And I am not sure I like what I see....

I am a bargain shopper. I rarely ever buy something that is not on sale. I try to buy used ie; Craigslist or Ebay when possible. I consider myself thrifty. But looking around at my Garage Sale I feel nothing but REMORSE, GUILT, and a side of REGRET.

Matthew 6:19-21 (New Living Translation)

19 “Don’t store up treasures here on earth, where moths eat them and rust destroys them, and where thieves break in and steal. 20 Store your treasures in heaven, where moths and rust cannot destroy, and thieves do not break in and steal. 21 Wherever your treasure is, there the desires of your heart will also be.

I feel those things because I can see what has been so important to be. I have been controlled by these "things". Buying them, washing them, finding a place to store them. Needing more, wanting more, shopping for the best price so I can afford MORE. And for what? So I cna sit out here in my PJ's freezing my butt off peddling my wares to the highest bidder. I have a word for that...Bullshhh. Use your imagination.

I am shallow. So very shallow. I have tried to live my life based on the Bible. And in this area I have FAILED. Big time. What I do know is that God will forgive me. I will have another chance. And I will make a better choice.

I am grateful for this journey. I am grateful God will use my life despite myself. I am grateful my neighbor is not checking out my saggy girls as he leaves for work.... Seriously. If you can't laugh at yourself what else is there?

Anybody want to buy some crap?

3 comments:

  1. is that laptop for sale?

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  2. Ahh, you're writing my story! Garage sales, EBay, anyplace I could get a bargain! And I accumulated so many things that I "loved". And those things convicted me! They showed my priorities, and they had a hold on me. I had to get rid of a lot of my "crap" too, in order to come to Uganda. Not for the money they would bring, or even the money they would suck up as I tried to keep them, but because of the hold they had on me, because caring for them kept me from being able to care for children who had nothing! I still have things I need to let go of, and maybe I will always stuggle with this, but I want to gather children instead of things. Because they are worth investing my life in. Because they are the only things I can take to heaven with me. Because that is what God has asked me to do.

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