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Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Baby Button

Romans 8:28 (The Message)
26-28Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God's Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don't know how or what to pray, it doesn't matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That's why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.

My baby Jemma is about to turn two. She was a totally surprise to us...especially to me. With all of the other children there was some time of preparation. With three of them it was the nine months I was pregnant, with one it was my courtship with his father, and with two it was whispers from God and through much prayer that we were able to prepare.
The phone call came without warning although I was waiting for a call. It was September 24th 2008 and the court hearing for our foster baby Sam. We had loved him and prayed over him for nine long months and on this day we were to find out if he would be ours forever. On the other end of the line was a dear friend who is also a social worker and what she told me was unfathomable. Our Sammy's mother had come to the court hearing that day to fight for her rights to remain Sams parent and while she was there went into labor in the courtroom with Sammy's sister. My friend was asking me if we would be willing to bring home the baby for 2 weeks until her father took a paternity test and got custody. My heart was screaming NO!!!!! but I heard my voice say yes. This was overwhelming to me because it meant we would now have to wait to find out if we would be able to adopt Sam and also because I didn't know if my heart could love another baby that may end up going back home. My sweet husband told me we would love this baby with no reservation for as long as we were to have her. He said although we don't know the future God does and He will help us with whatever the outcome. I know you are probably thinking awww what an amazing man... All I could think was how he slept so soundly while I did the midnight feedings with all of our children! This was no joke. In the last year our family had gone from being large with 4 kids to being out of control with 6. What would i do with a baby? I don't even like babies! I am a youth leader! Well 12 days later I went with a precious friend to pick up our new baby from the hospital. She was so little and cute. We dubbed her Baby Button. She was by far the worst baby we ever had. She experienced withdraw symptoms as she had been born drug exposed. It was quite literally hell. For times sake I will not explain all of this but bring you up to date. Our little baby is turning two this month. She is the apple of her daddy's eye. Not her biological father (who never took the paternity test and whose paternal rights were terminated by the judge on the grounds of abandonment) but by the only father she has ever known. She is still technically an orphan as we have not yet finished the adoption process. But my little orphaned baby has been here with us from the beginning of her life. Isn't God amazing.

Sidenote: Our babies biological mother is still apart of their lives. She is a welcome addition to our family and we are so thankful to have a relationship with her.

Romans 8:28 (New Living Translation)
And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.

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